Of All People ,Why Me ?

I made this poem after I watched the 1 liter of tears.

Thank you ,Aya Kito for inspiring me..^^.

One day I got tripped off and accidentally hurt myself

I saw mother’s worried face and I blamed myself

I told her not to worry about me anymore

I’m strong right? Because I’m your daughter

Ever since that day; I always tripped off and fall

I lost my sense of balance; I can’t even play basketball

It seems that my body doesn’t belong to me

I want to make a time machine and go back in time

If it wasn’t for this disease, this wouldn’t happen to me

If it wasn’t for this disease, I could enjoy falling in love

I cried almost a liter of tears; and asking God, “why me”?

Why of all people; this disease had chosen me?

It stole everything to me; can’t be happy for what’s happening

I feel so helpless; I can’t do anything except for crying

Mother said, “It’s not true that you don’t have anything”

You still have your hand, you can keep on writing

Mother’s warm voice; gave me courage

I could feel that she’ll never leave me

There’s a reason why I am experiencing this

It’s not God’s fault, maybe it really was destined

Foolish Girl

Whenever he has a problem

I keep on worrying about him

Even if I'm in the middle of my work

I'll set aside it just to give him a talk

Even in my busy schedule

I still give him my time

Even though it's already past my bedtime

I won't say goodbye 'til he says he's fine

I guess I am a fool

Hoping that he'll notice me soon

I've sacrificed a lot of things

Just to show him my feelings

I know he only sees me as a sister

I don't have no choice,is that better?

Because he'll never see me as a girl

Sigh, when will I ever learn ?

I guess I really am a fool

My love for him, he couldn't feel

Even though, I'm hurting inside

I have never left his side

Whenever he's sad, I'll make him happy

Whenever he's lonely, I'll keep him company

I'll never leave his side

Even if the person he love comes

I guess I'm foolish than a fool

Hoping that he'll notice me soon

Even if they say I'm a foolish one

I'll do everything, because I love him

I saw him holding her hand

It made me finally understand

That he'll never look my way

So I guess this is goodbye

I guess I really am a foolish

But my love for you isn't selfish

I just want you to know what I feel
I'm not expecting to be treated special

She left him like a piece of trash
I hate her; I want her to be bash
All I can do is to hug him tight
And told him everything will be all right

When will my foolishness come to an end ?
I know I'm nothing to him,but just a friend
But I kept on wiping his tears
I put my hand on his cheeks

He touched my hand and smiled
He looked into my eyes and became shy
This is my chance to tell him how I feel
But I doubted, and didn't say it at all

He finally smiled, he seems happy now
Oh ~Now I couldn't ask for more
I rather stay by his side as his best friend
Than being entitled as his "Girlfriend"

I am a fool, yes I admit
I don't need to be his girlfriend
All I want is to be on his side
Because this is what I wanted from the start

Sintang Palihim: Sa Wakas !

Hindi ako nagtagumay sa aking binabalak

Ang ipagtapat ng puso kong kay busilak

Pagkatapos ng gabing iyon; ako'y napaisip

Ako'y nabagabag; hanggang sa ako'y naka-idlip

Isang kasiyahan, ako'y inanyayahan

Isang kaibigang malapit sa akin

Sinabi "ito na ang iyong huling pagkakataon"

Upang sabihin ang tunay mong nararamdaman

Dahil sa kanyang sinabi ako'y nagdesisyon

Na sa araw na ito ako na'y aamin

Upang bitbit sa aking kalooban

Mabawasan at magkaroon ng kasagutan

Sa swimming pool, siya'y aking nakita

Ang kanyang ngiti ay puno ng sigla

Sana'y masiglang ngiti huwag mawala

Hanggang sa oras na ako' umamin sa kana

Gabi'y lumalalim, nagdidilim na ang kalangitan

Aking binabalak, tila aking nakakalimutan

Nawala sa aking isipan sa sobrang kaligayahan

Kaya't nawaglit na sa aking isipan

Aking kaibigan ako'y pinalalahanan

Napansin niyang aking nalimutan

Ang "mission" kong minsan ng di nagtagumpay

Sabi niya'y baka ako'y magsisi ng habambuhay

Noon di siya sang ayon sa aking kagustuhan

Ngunit ngayon sia ang tumutulong sa akin

Marahil naabasa niya ang aking mga mata

Kahit itago ko'y kanyang itong nakikita

Kahit siya'y tahimik ako'y inaalalayan

Minulat niya ako sa katotohanan

Pinalakas niya ang mahina kong damdamin

At ituloy ang mission na minsan naudlot noon

At sa kabilang dako, paming tatlo'y magkasama

At doon nasaabi ko sa aking sarili "ito na nga "!

Sinabi ang mga salitang higit sa isang taon

kong tinago sa aking kalooban

Siya'y di makapagsalita sa aking sinabi

Inaasahan ko na ang kanyang pagtanggi

Ngunit tila  iba pa yata ang nangyari?

Sa halip tanggihan siya pa'y napangiti ?

Ako'y natuwa at puso'y kinilig

Di ko pinagsisihan na siya'y inibig

Nagpapasalamat pa nga ako

Dahil siya ang pinili ng puso ko

Isang binatang tulad nya kay hirap hanapin

Siya'y puno ng sila at maunawain

Isang taong kay tamis kung ngumiti

Sa wakas ! ako'y naipag-tapat na rin

--Ang mahigit isang taong bitbit ng aking damdamin..

This poem is for my best friend Rodjeilyn, finally she didn't run away, she faced the fact that she loves him

and admitted it :] how I wish I'm strong as her, unlike me, I didn't tell him yet, guess it's too late~

I'm proud of you Rodj :]

04 12 10 :D